maybe, just, maybe

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Here I am, blogging, instead of completing my mid-term paper that's due Friday morning. 
So I was just browsing through an old friend's Facebook profile, and saw that he posted on his ex-girlfriend's wall. Just a simple ":)" post, but there was a little feeling that welled up in my sappy little heart. And I think, "Hey. It would be nice if they got back together".
Don't know the chances of that happening, because I think she's gotten another boyfriend already, but it was just one of those "awww" moments. 
I started out writing this post without having an end in mind, without having a specific thing that I wanted to write about. But, if I were to really look into my heart right now, I'd be lying if I said that I didn't want that. I've been single for awhile now, and while it feels great, it's just nice to wake up to a "Hey you :)" text. 
Not exactly a "Hey you" but I didn't want to make it sound so disgusting. :)
I've not been single for so long, since a few years ago, and it feels weird. But it's good. I suppose it's the period where I'm learning to appreciate relationships and the baggage and love that comes with it. And I'm learning to appreciate seeing the boys around me grow up into men :') So proud!
Maybe, more importantly, I'm seeing ME grow up. When you're alone, you start to realize that there's so much to learn about other people. You start to realize that the little things that you do really makes someone's day. It could even be getting someone's name right. Or just remembering someone's name the next time you meet. 
I've learned to be, or at least, I hope that I've learned to be less self-absorbed. That all the time in the world has to be spent on what is really important, instead of what I think is important. Less time on worrying about the future, on studies, on my own feelings, and more on people, their history, their worries and their dreams. 
Maybe I should save this post as a draft. Or maybe I should post it. I don't know. It doesn't seem to have an organized structure. But maybe, that's the beauty of it. That things don't have to have structure. That it's just out there, raw, honest, transparent.
Maybe. Just, maybe. 
On a side note, there's a great Project 365 on Wordpress. "If you were going to blog about one thing for an entire year, what would you choose?"
I've chosen.

People. :) 
p/s: Such a dilemma, but I was deciding between "Maybe, Just Maybe" and "Project 365" for the title. Either way, title sounds misleading hahapp/s: I think, I should continue on that mid-term. ppp/s: Maybe, just, maybe :)