Bliss

Well, not entirely. Not when we're arguing. But the past 6 months have been amazing. And I could not think of any one else I'd rather do life with.

To you. You are so amazing. Thank you for your steadfast love. Thank you for an amazing 6 months so far. Am looking forward to living life with you :))

Bittersweet

It was an amazing day, finally getting to hold you close, intertwine my fingers with yours, inhale that familiar scent. To finally be able to receive kisses on my forehead, nose taps and stolen kisses on the cheek. To hear you say "I love you" while gazing into your eyes. To laugh heartily, filled with a deep happiness that went unfelt for the longest time, simply because I could witness your antics that made you, you. 

Just 2 days left. Seeing you today reminded me of how much I miss you, how much I miss us being together, spending quality time with each other. Seeing you smile, and so eager to spend time with me made me feel so special again. 

I didn't want the day to end, but I can't stop what God has set in motion. I can't stop hours and days from passing by; I can only be part of that passing. To make the most out of it. But time is passing by too quickly; it doesn't seem to take pity on our circumstances. And Sunday is too near, too soon. 

My heart sank when you left tonight. It reminded me that a day has passed. A reminder that we're a day closer to us being separated by distance again for the next 5-6 weeks. This heart has become too fragile - I couldn't contain the tears inside. And i shed those tears silently, because I wasn't the only one in the room. Salty tears ran down my cheeks, staining my pillow. 

And my heart breaks. I'm afraid. I've tasted what it feels like to be with you again, and I can't go back to this LDR thing. It's so hard. I miss you so much. 

rainbows

We made up. Like, really made up. And I'm grateful for the hour that he spent reassuring me of his love. He's so handsome, and loving. I cannot take it, can pengsan. We come out of every disagreement stronger than ever, with a better understanding of each other.

I giggle. Hee. :) Ngawww 

broken

It's been a really tough week. All that arguing the entire week - it's taking up my energy. I'm feeling tired. Something must be wrong since we're arguing every day. It's taking a toll on me, on us. My heart breaks every time. The pain that I feel, the heaviness that comes with it, not to mention the sleeplessness too. 

Will we be able to remain as strong? Am I enough for him? Am I too little, or too much? What is his ideal girl? Can I believe it? 

So much to say, but I don't know how to pour it out in writing, although it's cathartic. But He sees and understands. 

Agape. 

#2

When I tell him that I want to buy a maxi dress, and he begins to look up "Maxi Dress" on Pinterest and ASOS just to gauge my style and the kind of dresses that I like. :) 

#1

He manages to make me giggle, even just by looking at him. :) 

Think Again

I thought I was slowly getting over it. I thought I was making progress.

Apparently not. It still hurts, so much. 

Stop thinking, Lind!

I surrender these hurts to you Father. Hurts I never thought I even had.

- I don't even know why it affects me so much. It never bothered me previously. 

T-0!

The day is finally here :) 

It has been a crazy, emotional, challenging, but fruitful and fulfilling fast from each other to put our focus on God instead. So much has changed within the 2 weeks! Am thanking God every day for what he's doing in my life, in yours, and in ours together. So excited for the season ahead of us! God is good :) 

I've missed you terribly over the past 2 weeks. But God made me realise how much more I've missed him, even in the literal sense - not being aware of His presence and His voice. Actually, more like how I've ignored His voice although I know He's calling out to me. But He is gracious. 

Cannot wait to share my journal with you! And to talk about our 2-week journey thus far :D 

Valentine's

"Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in love. Honour one another above yourselves. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervour, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Share with the Lord's people who are in need. Practice hospitality." - Romans 12:9-13

Jesus, thank You. There's a champ right there. :) 

Your way

There was an image of us walking along the beach, holding; not each other's hands; but Jesus'. 

"As with cattle going down into a peaceful valley, the Spirit of the Lord gave them rest. You led your people, Lord, and gained a magnificent reputation."

- Isaiah 63:14

Jesus, help us do this right- your way, for Your glory, and Yours alone.