denial

I have a confession to make.


I am weak. So weak is my faith that I had to hesitate for awhile before answering, "Yes, He does speak to me. I hear Him," just so that I would not seem crazy. 
Can I honestly call myself a follower of Christ? Can I honestly say that I love Him with all my heart?Can I honestly say that I would follow Him to the cross, if need came to be? 
No. I can't.I would have denied Him. Just like Peter did. Three times. 
It is only by His grace and unending mercies that I am His child, and that I can call myself His. 
Forgive this wretched heart, O Lord. Forgive me for my weakness. Forgive me for my pride, for once thinking that I would die for my faith, if I had to. 
But more than anything, help me to first acknowledge You with conviction.Take me out of my comfort zone; out of my "Christian circle"; place me in waters where my faith will be tested.
But don't leave me Lord. Because this wretched heart,Needs You.