chapter 3- this time

So this is it. A new chapter of my life. Only 4 hours till I leave the grounds of Malaysia, to study abroad for half a year in the States. 
It's so surreal. It's been a lifelong dream for me, ever since I was a little girl. To finally be able to do so, it feels frightening, exciting, unreal. 
The places which were once familiar to me back home, now sort of have an empty feel to it. My room looks bare; I drove the car around Subang for the last time, and I wondered how it'd feel like to come home after 6 months. Will things be the same? Change could be metaphorical, even literal. With the General Elections coming, it is a pity I won't be around to vote. Or maybe I will. 
I'll be seeing new faces in a couple of days. Back home, it'd be the CF which I looked forward to every semester. People whom have never failed me as friends, although I've failed them many times. People who always greet me with such bright smiles, like I mattered. They made me feel like my existence makes a difference in their lives. I hope it does. Random outings and suppers. New people in campus to befriend, and hopefully, to impact. New bonds made over new KGs each semester. 
This time, it's no longer the MCF. It's no longer familiar faces. No more Brandon, Ernest, Andrew, Melissa, Sara, Charmain, Wilson, Jarrod. No more Chris and Andrew Lin. No more Cae Me.No more Lei, Mel, Mei, Lisa and Wan. :(This time, it's the ACF. Instead of Wednesdays, it's Fridays now. This time, instead of leading, I'll be lead. It's a refreshing change (: This time, the focus is not much on poverty-stricken areas and countries, but something called the 'Urban Ministry'.This time, it's no longer FGT on weekends. No more being on worship duty on the keyboard, or piano, or even singing. 
Honestly, I AM a little afraid. I've a feeling that maybe, just maybe, God intends to 'stretch' me while I'm in Boston. But it will be a good encounter with Him. And I hope to take home a fresh perspective on Christianity, on evangelism, on discipleship, on love. 
I shall digress a little here. 
I always thought that the people being left behind would be hit the hardest. But I've changed my mind. It's pretty hard on the one leaving as well. But I would not have realized the treasures that I've had in my life if I didn't have to go to a new environment.
Especially with regards to the people in my life. Amazing people, and I've been blessed that they've chosen to be friends with me. The times when I was down, or even when I have something to shout about, they were there. And they always will be. I've so much to learn from them, and I hope to bring 'them' there with me to the States. Not literally. 
I hope to bring their care, love, friendship and selflessness with me. Thank you all for teaching me these priceless values. 
The time is now 3:30 pm. And my goodness! How I feel upset at not having a piano to play at any moment that I choose to. I hope I will still remember how to play with I come back. Or even better...to play while I'm in Boston! (: PRAY FOR THAT! Haha!
This time. It is the closing of a really old chapter, and the beginning of a new one. (: I'm excited! Bring it on! (: 
Keep me in prayer people!