Day 15- THE Phrase

"Lord Jesus, I accept You as my personal Lord and Saviour".
That phrase has changed my life. I'd like to be dramatic and say that it changed my life the moment I uttered it, but it didn't. But life certainly has changed ever since Jesus came into my life. My perspective of life, life's purpose, the people around me, the things that I do. Now all of them have meaning. They're all fulfilling. 
********Life hasn't been any easier with You, You know. Actually it's been harder. I've been through failure- twice. My hopes were crushed. Circumstances prevented me from going to church. I struggle with a lot more things now; like aspects of my character which are not pleasing to You, and even church.  
But You have brought me through them all. You have showed me what faithfulness is. You taught me the meaning of unconditional love and acceptance. You have been my friend. You were there when I cried my heart out over my breakup with Ken. You were there when I failed miserably in Engineering. You were there when I almost had to transfer out of Monash. 
More importantly, You're still here in my life, right now. Seeing me through all the moments. And the best part is, You know how I feel, perfectly. I don't need to struggle for words to express how I truly feel. Or to hold those tears back so I can form coherent sentences. The countless times I have 'abandoned' You for other things, You took me back into Your arms without making me feel small. You're full of grace. And now I truly understand the lyrics of that song:-

It's Your kindness Lord, that leads us to repentance.Your favor Lord, is our desireIt's your beauty LordThat makes us stand in silenceYour love, Your love, is better than life
We can feelYour mercy fallingYou are turning our hearts back againHear out praises rise to heavenDraw us near LordMeet us here

Yes Father. Your love and kindness leads me to repentance. You're like a Dad I never had. Haih. Tearing as I blog this out. I really love You lah Dad. Like super. Sometimes I think it's so hard being a Christian, but I can never, and would not want to picture a life without You. I know I'm far from being the ideal Christian, but I wanna thank You for the journey that You're walking through with me. You have never failed to amaze me, time and time again. (: 
p/s: That's my letter to You (: Finally. Heh. pp/s: I pray that You build me up to become the woman You want me to be.